Date: 9th Feb 2010 (Tuesday)
I've never thought I'd be blogging here again...
It's rather dead here, so why not?
Since my emotional rollercoaster has been raging non-stop exclusively.
Thus, this shall be a "dumping ground" post:
1) To the World:
BFF/PARTNERS does not exist in Jasmine's dictionary.
I just hope that people would stop taking my soft-heartedness for granted.
My life is a mess.
The World didn't turn against me, I did.
2) To L:
It's not easy to establish friendship & then being accused of taking love for granted.
I'm still not ready for accepting the friendship back.
Leave me alone.
3) To N:
Maybe you are right, that I am a great big jerk in your life.
To clarify, I sincerely apologise for wasting your precious time on our collaborations.
If you'd be happier to work with new acquiantances from now on, please do so.
I have no further clarifications.
Guilty as charged.
4) To D:
I'm confused.
What do I expect from you? I'm really unsure of it myself.
I'm blinded between admiration / likings for you.
As long as you're happy, it doesn't matter to me anymore.
So I'm letting it go...
Ciao~
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Sunday, January 25, 2009
It's just another...crying-out, free-falling session.
I just got this feeling for sgcafe, similar to the times I felt when I gave up on sgracer & idas....
The same thing happened in sgracer, playing idas no longer is a fun thing where you get to meet friends, talk cock, play & laugh together.
Fun, is gradually vaporizing...it seems that only the one located at the 'top of the pyramid' pwnz all.
It became a competition.
Friends, turn into foes. Games, turn into serious business.
Will hobbies - that helps one past time, evolve to that too?
I certainly hope that it would not happen.
Emptyness, again.
Gosh, this feeling is seriously freaking me out.
I absolutely don't desire to live a dead life.
SOMEBODY, PLEASE SAVE ME.
[DESPAIR]
- As one cries out, there's only the echo of silence. -
[EMPTYNESS]
- As though free-falling in darkness, never knowing when/where one would land. -
The same thing happened in sgracer, playing idas no longer is a fun thing where you get to meet friends, talk cock, play & laugh together.
Fun, is gradually vaporizing...it seems that only the one located at the 'top of the pyramid' pwnz all.
It became a competition.
Friends, turn into foes. Games, turn into serious business.
Will hobbies - that helps one past time, evolve to that too?
I certainly hope that it would not happen.
Emptyness, again.
Gosh, this feeling is seriously freaking me out.
I absolutely don't desire to live a dead life.
SOMEBODY, PLEASE SAVE ME.
[DESPAIR]
- As one cries out, there's only the echo of silence. -
[EMPTYNESS]
- As though free-falling in darkness, never knowing when/where one would land. -
Monday, January 12, 2009
Moody? No...moodless... D:
Yay! Tomorrow is Monday & I get to go to work! Yay~! \(^^)/ *rolls eyes* WTH#$%#$%$#...
Anyway, just a random post/rant cos' i'm kinda tired...
Should I absent myself from SOY'09 & just attend CC'09 as civilian?
Should I just start cosing TYL 18 at Cosfest'09 Day 01?
Should I just quit the idea of cosing Arcabaleno Reborn at Cosfest'09 Day 02?
Should I just quit cosplay & focus on BJD?
Should I just quit EVERYTHING & go on with my ANCIENT, DOWN-TO-EARTH, NO FANTASY ADULT LIFE???
So many ???... What should be my decision?
Maybe I do share some similarities with Hibari...lonely Cloud Guardian of the Vongola...a lonely soul forever...
Hitoribochi no Sadame = Destiny of Solitude...
Anyway, just a random post/rant cos' i'm kinda tired...
Should I absent myself from SOY'09 & just attend CC'09 as civilian?
Should I just start cosing TYL 18 at Cosfest'09 Day 01?
Should I just quit the idea of cosing Arcabaleno Reborn at Cosfest'09 Day 02?
Should I just quit cosplay & focus on BJD?
Should I just quit EVERYTHING & go on with my ANCIENT, DOWN-TO-EARTH, NO FANTASY ADULT LIFE???
So many ???... What should be my decision?
Maybe I do share some similarities with Hibari...lonely Cloud Guardian of the Vongola...a lonely soul forever...
Hitoribochi no Sadame = Destiny of Solitude...
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